Welcome to Not Me! Monday! Created by MckMama You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.
This is a great way to show you that I am perfectly unperfect!!! I hope it makes you smile.
I did NOT go swim 20 laps at the pool at 6 o'clock this morning and then come home and eat 3 oreos and a piece of Mocha Choc. Silk Pie for breakfast...
I most certainly did NOT eat another 2 oreos for lunch, while I made sure the boys had a proper serving of fruit, dairy and grain.
I with out a doubt did NOT think eating nothing but Oreos for breakfast, lunch and dinner could possibly be the next fad Hollywood Diet.. Ohhh but don't I wish!!!
I did NOT start a load of wash, come upstairs set the timer to remind me to go switch it out, and then 50 mins later forget what the timer was for...
I did NOT seethe with envy wishing I could trade places with my husband at work knowing full well he got to slowly start his day with other adults draggin' cause it's MONDAY- while I had one child doing flips off the arm of the couch, one child jumping on the trampoline while trying to do his math, and one child secretly climbing on top of the fridge to get to the candy jar.. Ohhh No, that would NEVER happen in my house.. My children are well mannered polite boys that wake up with calm spirits, quietly eat their breakfast and eagerly ask to start their homeschooling for the day while I make bread, sing hymnals and knit all at the same time. :P
PS.. Those Oreos were NOT double stuffed!!!!

Yesterday...

I got a message from one of my sweet friends.. I truly believe that she was lead by the Holy Spirit to share with me a link to Molly Piper's blog yesterday and I have been pouring through her posts ever since. She speaks my heart. I think she speaks every mothers heart that has ever lost a child.

If you have a chance, go to her page.. To the right side of her blog you will see "Popular Blog Series" and under that you will see "How to Help Your Grieving Friend" She speaks my heart.. http://ow.ly/ZAOn

Some do not understand because they have never experienced the loss of a child, either in the womb or out. Some do not understand that you can not compare this type of loss, because we all grieve differently. Some say things that hurt you deeply that on any other day would have been just fine to say, but just not that day. That moment. In that way. Some do not understand why I am taking this so hard. But the reality is, I don't understand either. This is our 4Th loss. The others hurt but not like this. Not this deep. I saw a yoke sac turn into a bean and that bean turn into a small outline of a baby, I saw and heard a beating heart, and then no more.

Martin Luther King Jr.

Yesterday the Boys and I watched the famous "I have a Dream" speech along with learning a bit more about Martin Luther King Jr's up bringing. It was great to learn together about the man behind the famous name and famous speech.

Moments.

Moments in my life feel like the vast Sea.

Some days are calm and as smooth as glass, and then there are days where the undertow sucks me down under- too deep to see which way is up. As I finally find my way, I get pulled under again, not able to catch my breath.. I start to panic, desperately grasping for anything to pull me back up, and then a quiet voice whispers to me-

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters ... they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord your God" (Isaiah 43:1-3)"

Trying to handle this life on our own, without His guidance, grace and comfort will ALWAYS leave us feeling overwhelmed.. Like a itty bitty minnow trying to swim away from the great white sharks. But the amazing thing is that we don't have to feel that way. Our moments don't have to be in our own effort.. That was never His design.. And that is exactly why it is sooooo important to etch the word of God onto our hearts. To have scripture on the forefront on our minds..

I started reading a book called "Putting On a Gentle & Quiet Spirit" By: Elizabeth George and I came across this-

"as we put on God's gentle and quiet spirit and rely on the Lord instead of our human efforts and emotions, as we wait on Him to make sense and use of our suffering times, then indeed we have much to show in the end. Every time we endure hard times, we prove that the glory of the Lord is truly revealed in the end. As the psalmist declared,

"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; Blessed is the man [or woman] who trusts in Him! Psalm 34:8"

Thank You Lord for providing me with a Life Jacket.

Help me to remember to always wear it.

New Beginnings

So I haven't blogged in a while. Hope ya'll can understand. :) December was AMAZING. Dale surprised me with a GIRLS TRIP to Hawaii with one of my very close girlfriends, which was MUCH NEEDED and soooo very much appreciated.. Nov. and Dec. we had a lot of time just hangin' out as a family.. Even though the pain from loosing the baby comes in waves, and is still very raw at times, I give thanks.. Going through the last couple months has helped pull our family back together tighter than ever before. Don't get me wrong, I miss hanging out with friends, but at the same time I have SOOO been enjoying just being US. :) Well enough about all that.. This is a NEW YEAR with NEW BEGINNINGS!!! Yay! And one of my goals for this year is to write a blog every week... So here goes week one!

On a side note-

A local Coastie's Wife and AMAZING photographer is giving away a FREE photo shoot.

If you are local check out her site here-

http://www.simplybphotos.blogspot.com/