Monday, January 25, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I got a message from one of my sweet friends.. I truly believe that she was lead by the Holy Spirit to share with me a link to Molly Piper's blog yesterday and I have been pouring through her posts ever since. She speaks my heart. I think she speaks every mothers heart that has ever lost a child.
If you have a chance, go to her page.. To the right side of her blog you will see "Popular Blog Series" and under that you will see "How to Help Your Grieving Friend" She speaks my heart.. http://ow.ly/ZAOn
Some do not understand because they have never experienced the loss of a child, either in the womb or out. Some do not understand that you can not compare this type of loss, because we all grieve differently. Some say things that hurt you deeply that on any other day would have been just fine to say, but just not that day. That moment. In that way. Some do not understand why I am taking this so hard. But the reality is, I don't understand either. This is our 4Th loss. The others hurt but not like this. Not this deep. I saw a yoke sac turn into a bean and that bean turn into a small outline of a baby, I saw and heard a beating heart, and then no more.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Moments in my life feel like the vast Sea.
Some days are calm and as smooth as glass, and then there are days where the undertow sucks me down under- too deep to see which way is up. As I finally find my way, I get pulled under again, not able to catch my breath.. I start to panic, desperately grasping for anything to pull me back up, and then a quiet voice whispers to me-
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters ... they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord your God" (Isaiah 43:1-3)"
Trying to handle this life on our own, without His guidance, grace and comfort will ALWAYS leave us feeling overwhelmed.. Like a itty bitty minnow trying to swim away from the great white sharks. But the amazing thing is that we don't have to feel that way. Our moments don't have to be in our own effort.. That was never His design.. And that is exactly why it is sooooo important to etch the word of God onto our hearts. To have scripture on the forefront on our minds..
I started reading a book called "Putting On a Gentle & Quiet Spirit" By: Elizabeth George and I came across this-
"as we put on God's gentle and quiet spirit and rely on the Lord instead of our human efforts and emotions, as we wait on Him to make sense and use of our suffering times, then indeed we have much to show in the end. Every time we endure hard times, we prove that the glory of the Lord is truly revealed in the end. As the psalmist declared,
"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; Blessed is the man [or woman] who trusts in Him! Psalm 34:8"
Thank You Lord for providing me with a Life Jacket.
Help me to remember to always wear it.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
So I haven't blogged in a while. Hope ya'll can understand. :) December was AMAZING. Dale surprised me with a GIRLS TRIP to Hawaii with one of my very close girlfriends, which was MUCH NEEDED and soooo very much appreciated.. Nov. and Dec. we had a lot of time just hangin' out as a family.. Even though the pain from loosing the baby comes in waves, and is still very raw at times, I give thanks.. Going through the last couple months has helped pull our family back together tighter than ever before. Don't get me wrong, I miss hanging out with friends, but at the same time I have SOOO been enjoying just being US. :) Well enough about all that.. This is a NEW YEAR with NEW BEGINNINGS!!! Yay! And one of my goals for this year is to write a blog every week... So here goes week one!
On a side note-
A local Coastie's Wife and AMAZING photographer is giving away a FREE photo shoot.
If you are local check out her site here-